Problem

I don't wish anything bad on her, but thoughts of her when not watching for like 2 weeks came back.  I don't know why it bothered me this time, but I mean I guess I just didn't want the news while I was busy, ironing..  :/  Like, she has a deep hatred and smirking nature, trying to disettle me.  I always am earnest and don't say I'm much but hear lots of praise.  When I hear that I'm just a joke, that doesn't settle well with me..  I don't wanna be fooled by Ellen just because I feel upset watching the show.  When I didn't watch it, I was okay.  I don't know if I should apologize to anyone, but I know I didn't want to mean it.  My room is such a mess.  I must paint it!!